If I’m honest, I think I’ve always been a goody too shoes… ever since I was little, I always was a bit of a teacher’s pet. I liked getting those merits, gold stars, top marks. I was a try harder and very compliant. I guess I never felt the need to break or push the rules.
My mum *may* tell you that when I was a teenager I was a little more of a rebel, but not anything too serious (that I can recall anyway). I for sure when through those phases, well maybe a couple of wee phases. I specifically remember having a chain that attached to my baggy jeans, I was so super cool, ahhh being a 90s child is the best.
Then at uni, I feel like I for sure made the most of it, but I did have lots of goody too shoes tendencies. I remember saying no to nights out and heading to the gym instead, and being a little bit of a loner on occasion. No regrets though, I was being true to myself, perhaps a touch stubborn in some places, but that’s just who I am. I was pretty lucky that my friends were particularly cool and understanding.
As an adult, all of this goody too shoes-ness has meant that I’ve turned into a total people pleaser. If I’m honest, I can’t decide if that’s a bad thing, or a good thing. I always try to be true to myself, but I struggle between that and being what I know people what me to be. It’s extra tricky as my job has a high level of customer service and relationship building, which means I’m constantly (well hopefully) being extra kind and accommodating.
But right now, I feel like I’m a bit straight laced.
I’m torn, because I want to be true to myself, and do things that I enjoy doing, not just things that I feel like I have to do, but equally I don’t want to miss out. So I’m making a little pact with myself to not necessarily make myself feel uncomfortable, break the rules or do something out of character, but just make sure I’m living my best life and best self. That doesn’t involve being a goody too shoes all the time.